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journal: lindseybell
self photo cred: zachbowen
i'm simply a silly girl that loves books and movies and loving on people and smiling all the time and being super excited about silly things. i'm pretty nuts, but i'm not really if you take the time to get to know my heart, and i'm striving relentlessly to make my life completely His. i am hopelessly broken, but it does not stop me from wanting to become whole in my beautiful Jesus.
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three quotes defining my life at the moment:
"i will love you if i never see you again, and I will love you if i see you next tuesday." -lemony snicket
"everything in my life comes alive as i lift You higher." -hillsong united
"if flowers can grow through blankets of melting snow, there is hope for me." -tyler knott gregson
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"being tender and open is beautiful. as a woman, I feel continually shhh'ed. too sensitive. too mushy. too wishy washy. blah blah. don't let someone steal your tenderness. don't allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart. nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things. whether it's a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep, feel it all – look around you. all of this is for you. take it and have gratitude. give it and feel love." -zooey deschanel
"you're going to discover that conversations are best at 4 am. the heavier the eyelids, the sincerer the words. those are the talks you'll remember. it's ok not to know the answer and silence is not awkward. it's shared, so share it more often than not." jeff stuckel
"it is all about falling in love with yourself and sharing that love with someone who appreciates you, rather than looking for love to compensate for a self love deficit." -eartha kitt
"there were things I wanted to tell him. but I knew they would hurt him. so i buried them, and let them hurt me." -jonathan safran foer
"because there's nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it is sent away." -sarah kay
"i believe a strong woman may be stronger than a man, particularly if she happens to have love in her heart. i guess a loving woman is indestructible." - john steinbeck
"god is within her; she will not fall." - psalm 46:5
"jesus replied: "love the lord your god with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. this is the first and greatest commandment. and the second is like it: love your neighbor as yourself." -matthew 22:37-39
"the lord will fight for you. you need only be still." - exodus 14:14
"tell her something true when all she's known are lies. tell her god loves her. tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom. tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. all these things are true." -to write love on her arms
"there is nothing wrong with loving the crap out of everything. negative people find their walls. no. never apologize for your enthusiasm. never. ever. never." ryan adams
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College Bucket List
1. Graduate from college with a bachelor's degree
2. Win a GIANT stuffed animal at a theme park/carnival (better yet, get someone to win it for me)
3. Buy some Amish lye soap and use the whole bar
4. Sneak three bags of candy into a movie
5. Play a FULL game of Monopoly with three other people
6. Sponsor a child in a different country
7. Pick wildflowers in an unfamiliar field
8. Step foot on three continents
9. Lie on the ground and roll down a hill
10. Make 20 people smile… in one day
11. Save someone's life
12. Visit an abandoned place
13. Watch every episode of the X Files
14. Get my wisdom teeth out and not die
15. Paint the bison
16. Play chess or checkers in the park
17. Be kissed in the rain
18. Go to a Gavin Degraw/Michael Buble' concert (pick one)
19. Successfully continue on with an impossible conversation without growing angry
20. Go caving
21. Randomly dance in the middle of a crowded place--- and don't laugh directly afterward
22. Have a friend that will cross at least three things off this list with me in one day
23. Make cupcakes for a large group of people
24. Successfully create, plan, and lead an incredible mission trip/service project
25. Help a child
26. Teach a kid to tie their shoes
27. Send a package to the kids in Northern Ireland
28. Stay awake for 36 hours straight
29. Live like a local in a foreign place for a month
30. Bring someone closer to God
31. Go camping
32. Read the New Testament of the Bible entirely
33. Help a homeless person
34. Kind of learn to play the piano (even better, learn to play Sunday Morning by Maroon 5)
35. Order a pizza at college and get it delivered
36. Dance to an entire song with someone (tango, salsa, waltz, your choice)
37. Get something you've written published (short story, news article, volunteering experience, etc.)
38. See a hit Broadway play (Sweeney Todd - incredible)
39. See Daddy's grave and talk to him for a while
40. Help someone in need
41. Fall asleep in a hammock
42. Attend a ballet or symphony
43. Sew a dress
44. Watch a sun rise/set
45. Make exercise at least a two times a week necessity (has to be consistent for a month to count)
46. See California
47. Go to a museum (Louvre in Paris, France)
48. Run an eight minute mile
49. Kiss a boy on New Year's at midnight
50. Successfully keep a fish alive for a month
51. Paint a pretty picture on a canvas
52. Send a love note/message in a bottle out to a body of water
53. Be a real mentor to someone
54. Ride on an overnight train/bus
55. Be a vegetarian for a week
56. Read at least five books on the Nobel Prize for Literature list (list found here)
1. East of Eden by John Steinbeck
2. Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
57. Hear someone say that something I wrote made them cry
58. Realize the most amazing, intelligent, wonderful, beautiful man has fallen in love with me
59. Fall in love myself
60. Walk in the woods at night
61. Cook an entire three course meal (soup/salad, entree', and dessert) from recipes off Food Network
62. Throw a themed party (Harry Potter one for sure)
63. Go to Lover's Circle with a Bible and a packed breakfast to watch the sunrise
64. Celebrate Christmas in July
65. Put change into someone's expired meter
66. Spend an entire day in a library
67. Visit a prison/castle
68. Set the highest score on a video game (preferably Galaga)
69. Join or form a book club
70. Look in the mirror every day, think "I love you," and mean it
71. Exercise with a Richard Simmons' VHS tape
72. Travel to an orphanage in a third world country and volunteer for a week
73. Go on a mission trip with Lipscomb or a church
74. Read the Old Testament entirely
75. Play poker with legit poker chips and win a hand
76. Go on a blind date
77. Get completely lost around town . . . and then find my way home with a GPS
78. Learn to knit or crochet (must make a scarf or hat)
79. Be kissed under mistletoe
80. Pay for a meal with coins only
81. Milk a cow/goat
82. Go cliff jumping
83. Make fire without matches
84. Throw a dart into a Tennessee map and travel to where it goes
85. Sell something on Ebay/Amazon
86. Be Baptized
87. Be a vegetarian for a full month
88. Take a really different kind of job (McDonalds cashier/waitress?) just for the experience
89. Start writing the book you've always wanted to
90. Have a lunch date with a friend/teacher from high school
91. Write legitimate posts in a blog each day for a year . . . no excuses
92. Hit one of those orange cones they put on the side of the road
93. Exceed 2,500 pictures on Facebook
94. Dance at a dance party/rave without feeling like an idiot or sitting in a corner
95. Ride public transportation and read at least three chapters of a novel without caring about the stops
96. Take a picture of lightning
97. Take a picture of myself in the exact same spot every day for a month, then loop it all together
98. Buy clothes and wear them out of the store
99. Donate one gallon of blood
(current standing: five pints)
100. See a movie (besides Harry Potter or Breaking Dawn) at midnight
101. Ace a test.
102. Sit in the airport for an afternoon and write while watching people's reunions
103. Renew my CPR license
104. Get a tattoo/piercing
105. Fast for three days and have a spiritual awakening
106. Jog in the peaceful silence of the night (might bring some pepper spray)
107. Stay up for an entire night in the comforting presence of a conversation with an old friend
108. Write a song
109. Learn to play the piano to one song enough to sing along with the notes
110. Have an extreme couponing experience
111. Go outside when it's raining simply to dance, jump around, and get soaking wet
112. Make a LEGIT rainbow cake
113. Make a tutorial on your blog about a crazy difficult/interesting craft
114. Go to Harry Potter World
115. Own a dress from Anthropologie
116. Ride public transportation to go somewhere and return on it too
117. Tutor or read to a child/group of children on a regular basis
118. Study Abroad in Uganda
119. Fast for a day
120. Make my own pasta
121. Bungee jump or do some other kind of crazy thrill thing
122. Travel around a country by yourself for a while (cause you're an adult now, Linz)
123. Let go
"Go ahead and clap."
-Coach Keith, Fired Up
