I was watching the re-run of the Mtv Movie Awards today after my long nap. I was kind of disappointed with a lot of the winners this year, but that's besides the point. The greatest part of the show was when Emma Stone got on stage to accept her Trailblazer Award. In her speech, she said something I will probably never forget:
"Harness your own originality. What sets you apart can sometimes feel like a burden and it's not. A lot of the time, it's what makes you great."
Such powerful words that has now put her in the category of my favorite actresses. She is right behind Zooey Deschanel. These words could not have come at a better time. I was feeling pretty down on myself after the last post I wrote. A lot of questions were swirling through my head. How can I be real? What makes me real? What makes me value? And then, out of the blue, as clear as day, I hear these words and I smile and almost cry. Emma is absolutely right: I need to harness my originality because it makes me great. It's so true that my originality burdens me. I've said it so many times, "Why can't I be normal?" But why should I want to be like everyone else? Being normal is not genuine. Being normal is, as the hipsters say, mainstream. Days like today I feel like I'm one step closer to being me and being comfortable with me.
As for the friends situation, I've decided to take them in small doses. I can't be around negativity like that. I know people say that we should all watch how we throw around the word "love" and "hate" but my problem is how I throw around the word "friend". All I can call them is friends because I don't know what else to call them. They will stay on that friend level until they show me that they are worthy (notice I said that they had to be worthy and not I had to be worthy) of being called good friends. Anything's possible so I won't say it will never happen but the chances are slim to none. I'm glad Robert was right all along and I'm glad I've realized it. One day I will find a friend to call my own but until then, I will work on me.
Thanks, Emma Stone, for being you.
